Tuesday, December 04, 2007 7:27 PM
i don't know what to say anymore, but probably all these were my fault to begin with. i'm sorry. but maybe this period of time will be best for us to think things through carefully. i'm sorry for not knowing how to prioritize my life properly. sorry for all the hurt i've caused. i'm just .. in a period of transition. two months isn't very long, but i'll try. although i hope that .. no matter what the ending is, you'll always be my good friend. i know i shouldn't expect so much from you .. i'm sorry. wan.an你的爱早已经不同 i had a really boring statistics lecture today. x_x macroeconomics lecture was still okay. yup. met
grace and
yanpeng after that. hmm.. glad that
you found your stuff. (:
saw
erbert,
tim and his girlfriend also!
erbert looks .. fitter now! hahah, in comparison to when he just came back from australia .. hahah. yeahh.
i ate lamb shoulders again! yesterday i ate two plates you know! x) actually, i didn't feel hungry just now. but it's like .. i've been eating from
salad bar (name of the stall) everyday, that i feel so weird not eating there for just one day! hahah, and the lamb shoulders is nice okay! :D
and.
i feel really fat today. ahh, sucks. and it's not just that. i feel my esteem going down by the day. and the feeling is just awful. :(
i still remember back then i felt so inferior of myself in everything i do .. and it was one guy who saved me;
jeffrey. frankly speaking, he didn't do much at all. like, really nothing at all. but it was just this feeling i get when i'm around him. made me feel .. better of myself. and although after that, i still felt like i wasn't good enough. at least i was able to carry myself more confidently. but now .. it all feels like an act.
ohwells. sociology class test tomorrow, 10%. sucks, i haven't studiedd. :(
andand. thanks
tom for lending me your laptop. (:
to
caleb, if he actually reads it. hmm, saw that you were really tired. rest more please! and take care. (:
to
adrian and
shaz. thanks for being with me these days. (: really super duper appreciate it! hahah, and thanks for tolerating me as well. (: i'm glad you two accepted me for the way i am!
to the person who loves fullstops. thanks for being such a loyal friend. i know that i can always count on you to be there for me when i'm sad. (:
to
sean teo, if he read this. thanks for your help. (: and thanks for being a friend! hahah, used to be scared of you. but now i think you're actually quite friendly and nice. ((:
lastly, but not the least,
grace. thanks for being there for me, even though you had your own issues. really appreciate it. (: it's so amazing to me sometimes. it's like, we've reached a stage where we don't need to communicate often to understand each other, to know in our hearts that we'll be there for each other. we can don't talk often, but we always know that we'll be there to catch each other when we fall. it's just so amazing to me .. thanks for the friendship. (:
okays. i like my MP4 alot. (: and i want the song "why" in my mp4! ahhh,
YVONNE! x(
take care people. halfway through the week already. (:
loves.
